I am a SAHM. There are many rewards to doing this and lately I have been facing some challenges. Currently my challenge is keeping my milk supply up and trying to get my son back to breast-feeding.
Here is some back story:
Tristan was born sep8 2010 and he was a GREAT latcher and feeder right from birth. I had to have c-section and he still was patient while my milk arrived. Two weeks after he was born his father contracted a MRSA(staph infection) in his face and we had to quarantine our whole family for 5 days. MRSA has a 85% kill rate in infants our family is VERY fortunate to have our little angel with us today.
Tristan went to live with one of my cousins during the 5 day quarantine and I stayed with my fiance in the hospital to arrange his insurance information and help him. (He was very doped up from all the medication they had to give him; I was his advocate). Our family was separated for a total of 2months while my fiance continued to heal in our home but I got Tristan back with me after 7days. Once Tristan and I were back together his nursing abilities were pretty much shot ( I moved in with my fiances inlaws...omg. The sacrifices we make! lol) It took a lot of work to get him back on the breast but I was still having to pump a lot of his feedings.
My cousin didn't listen to anything I told her; I said no binkies and she did it anyways. I told her not to over feed him yet she grossly over-fed him almost 5oz each feeding at 2weeks old... Ever since I have had Tristan back with me he is constantly spitting up breast milk or formula. He seems hungry all the time. He is teething and screaming and refusing to nurse on my breasts. I am getting to the point where I am at the end of my rope with breast-feeding. Just the other day I was feeding him in my van and he started choking and gasping while feeding. I fed him and he came off my breast and I was spraying like a fountain. He cried for 10 mins and then refused to nurse at all...it broke my heart. I am all alone with my son for over 14hours a day and am the sole parent that takes care of him during the day.I don't have a big support system of people that can competently take care of him for me, I really never get a break.
I am exhausted and the idea of just mixing a bottle when he is screaming is becoming more and more appealing... I just feel alone and helpless I am trying very hard to continue to nurse him and pump bottles. But now one of my breasts has this pimple like thing on the end of my right nipple which hurts when he nurses (but not when I am pumping). It is painful though if I try to hand express milk onto it and it is sore when I touch it. (Unfortunately I can't go to the doctor right now because I can not afford health insurance). I know I don't have mastitis though. I am just ready to give up and go to formula, at least I know Tristan likes it...but it really breaks my heart I don't want to quit nursing... he is still so young and can still benefit from mommy's milk. Tristan is on baby foods now (which are made by his mother) and he loves them. But I think it is way too young to stop him on milk. He currently eats 25-35oz or formula/or breastmilk. Along with 8oz of baby food and 1/2cup of rice cereal. And he is still underweight.... I don't know what I am doing wrong here. I do everything his doctor has recommended and still has not doubled his birth weight. He was born at 8lbs 2.2oz. and now at 5 1/2 months I am guessing he is at about 15lbs. (He has not gone in for his next check up yet so I don't know exactly what he weighs yet).
Please if anyone has gone through the same things I am struggling with reply to this thread with reckless abandon! I am pleading to anyone that will listen. Sincerely MommaBear