Seriously, sitting here crying my eyes out. I always had the goal to nurse until 2. I said in the past that I would slowly start weaning at 18 months, but when 18 months came around I wasn't ready and neither was he. So I just kept going. Now he'll be 2 in 3 weeks. I am just so depressed about weaning him.
I'm a single mom, and I honestly have never had a problem with nursing. He's had some bad habits at times but nursing is a HUGE part of my relationship with him. I feel like weaning him will be removing a giant part of our relationship. A huge part of me and a huge part of him will just be gone..
Why am I weaning? He's supposed to start staying with his dad overnights in the summer.. and also staying over at my mother's place occasionally. He still nurses throughout the night. And I guess.. at one point I felt like I was ready to have my body back. Sometimes I feel like he owns my chest and he gets mad at me for not nursing right away or even for sleeping on my stomach..
My family has been supportive until this point. Now I am started to get a lot of comments on how it's "weird" or "creepy" to nurse past two. So it feels like if I did keep going I would have to avoid seeing my family completely. And avoid taking him out long because he asks to nurse in public and has a melt down if I say no to him.
I feel like my heart is breaking over this. How am I supposed to just get rid of something that means so much to both of us? I am not sad about him growing up at all, I'm actually excited. But I am really depressed about this...