“We are not put on earth for ourselves, but are placed here for each other. If you are there always for others, then in time of need, someone will be there for you.”
@jordanna. I didn't want to be explicit, but she was the LC I contacted. My insurance covers half, but I really can't afford it upfront. I emptied my personal account for the first one, and I don't want to ask my parents for more money as they are already doing so much for me.
But thanks for your sweet words. I really hope we can both get through this
@both jodanna and norasmom- I think it's interesting that I get responses after coming home today feeling depressed about it. Gives me hope. I won't even go to any of the cool mom groups around here because I don't want anyone to see me use a bottle, even if it is breastmilk. Everyone here is super into bfing and cloth diapers and stuff and I don't want to get labelled.
The good news is that he spent some time at the breast- maybe 5 sucks tops? in the laid back position in the tub. And I will be going to a "support group" at a Health Center (though I was told by the LC there I'd probably be the only one there! So free help!). And the hospital grade pump is on its way.
Just in case, I did make an appt at the Jack Newman Institute in Toronto. I'll be home in Buffalo for spring break, so it's just a couple hours away. This is becoming an international affair!
Thanks for posting right when I needed it.
Sorry for bumping up a page 4 thread, but I thought I would update.
I got a prescription for Reglan and started that on Tuesday. I've been taking Goat's Rue for about a week. But I'm still pumping the same amount. I have the Motherlove Special Blend coming in the mail.
My little boy no longer screams near my breasts, but he doesn't do much else either. I did some position work with an LC, but nothing. Like in the other thread I'm considering craniosacral therapy, but only if health insurance covers it.
I went to an LLL meeting and she was helping me deal with my feelings. I almost wonder if I should stop hurting myself and be at peace. I'm really sick of being SO DEPRESSED.
I wish I had answers. Or knew what was the matter. I feel so guilty for having such a sad pregnancy. Even his conception was sad. Now I wonder if any of those things are affecting him. The fact that I spent much of my pregnancy crying because I didn't know what to do.
If I knew he would go back on eventually, I wouldn't stop trying. But now the trying is hurting alot inside and I'm not sure how healthy it is to be constantly anxious about this.
*** Sorry I was so sad and depressed. . .I do have some fabulous news! We tried the SNS again last night in the tub, and he nursed! He took about 2 ounces in all so I could tell it was working. Then today he did it again! It all started when I started feeding him in a more snuggly position than advised for bottles. I'm very happy. At the same time, I enjoyed it so that if it happens to be the last time, I don't have a bad memory of it. I also pumped 8 oz yesterday! Idk if I'll do it again today. But there is hope.***
Last edited by @llli*katia11; February 17th, 2011 at 06:24 PM.
I was wondering how are you doing and if you were able to find a solution to your problem. I am going thriough the same thing and was hoping to get help or any suggestions you may have that worked for you. I am desparate to bf my son, be he doesn't latch...
You can call me JoMo!
Mom to baby boy Joe, born 5/4/09 and breastfed for more than two and a half years, and baby girl Maggie, born 7/9/12.
I did not end up nursing full time- however, I did manage to nurse a few times a week until he had too many teeth and it was just too painful as he doesn't really remember. I still try and slip it in, but I am coming to terms with that. HOWEVER, I did manage to bring up my supply to fully pump what he needs every single day. We have been formula free for at least 3 months, maybe more. I got a hosptital grade pump, a prescription for domperidone, and used every opportunity I could to pump for just a few minutes. Occasionally I would watch a movie with my guy friend and pump for an hour (not often!!!). Determination is most important- you can do this!!! For the baby, warm baths with him helped alot. I also had a special situation because I am a single student mom and I was by myself in Chicago. I could only do so much. I hope you have gotten some good responses on your thread, and I sure hope this isn't too late!!!! Make a thread we will help you. <3 kait
you pumped in front of your guy friend? is he awesome or what?!?!