Hi! I am new to this forum (and forums in general) and am a little lost as to how to get started besides lurking. My LO is 11 wks old today and I have been trying to get her to bf for 11 wks. My milk was delayed coming in and she became jaundiced in the hospital, so we started supplementing with an SNS. I got ulcerations on my nipples, mastitis, and a yeast infection, but she has never gotten efficient at nursing despite getting her frenulum clipped and weeks of "suck training" with a speech pathologist. I have been struggling with accepting the bfing relationship as it is--largely one that involves pumping and bottle feeding. She is starting to struggle even against the bottle and I'm afraid she will develop food aversions and feeding issues. At this point, all I really want is for her to grow into a healthy happy baby and to enjoy her feeding experience whatever it is.
Every time I start to go through the grieving process and let go of the idea of nursing, I get seduced by the idea that she might get better, more efficient--tomorrow, next week, next month. I feel so alone in this struggle because it feels like there is support if I keep struggling with nursing and no support if I decide to EP. Where do I find a local group that supports EPing moms? How do I get started with a group of online EPing moms? Are there any other moms who are struggling or have struggled with my same issues?