LO is 7 weeks now and breastfeeding is still difficult I don't think I can do this anymore. I don't even know when this is going to end. I am so stressed out that I can't even enjoy my bonding time with her since I always think of the next feeding. Every feeding is a battle. I thought it was doing so well but that was only for 1 day. I never got a perfect latch on the left side, sometimes she would latch on the right side but my montgomery gland is irritated that it feels like my breast is being stabbed by a knife everytime she sucks. I really need a break. I went back to pumping for 2 days now, this morning I put her back on my breast and it is still painful so back to pumping again which by the way is also painful but not as bad.
Hubby is going back to work next week and I don't know how I'll be able to manage. I also have a 4 year old girl who goes to school.
I am breaking down now as I'm typing.. Glad no one is around to see me.I've been holding it since this morning. They would think I'm crazy for crying over breastfeeding.