So, it looks as though I'm going to be weaning my 4 month old daughter. I returned to work about 2 months ago, working part time, and managed to pump enough for awhile. My pumping output has decreased dramatically and my work hours are about to increase dramatically. I will be working roughly 55-60 hours over a 5 day period.. Some days I will leave home at 9 am and not get home til well after 1 am.
I can't not take the job. My family is in financial ruins since my too-early maternity leave and I am being forced into the position for monies sake.
Today, Grammy used the last of our freezer stash. I've been crying all day and I don't know what to do. The last few times I've nursed, DD has seemed somewhat unsatisfied - I'm not even making enough for her while we're together.
I feel like a failure. My oldest daughter, who is now three, weaned on her own at almost 2 years old. It was so natural and easy and unemotional. This time I am terrified at the thought. I don't know where to start or what to do, I'm worried my breasts are already suffering some sort of an issue - I keep feeling random shooting pains and aches.
The thought of feeding my daughter from a bottle is killing me. I don't know how I'm going to do this. Please offer some help, encouragement, something, I don't know. Nobody in my real life understands. Everyone is surprised I even care this much about it, that it's even an issue for me, but it is. I'm devestated.
How do I start with formula? I've never bought it before, I've never used it before. I don't even know how to make it. I know I can't just stop nursing cold turkey and I don't want to. Ideally I'd like to keep nursing while I'm around but it's becoming obvious that that might not work out so well.
I'm crying as I write this. I feel so all alone.