Re: 7 wk old Twins - 2oz of Milk a Day
Welcome and congratulations on your frustrating new babies! I'm sorry things have been so hard for you. Bedrest and a long NICU stay and breastfeeding difficulties and 3 other kids... You must be just about at the end of your rope. I know I would be.
Putting the babies to the breast is a terrific avenue to pursue. If you can get the babies to nurse effectively, then I'm willing to bet that you can eventually phase out the bottles and pumping and supplementing. I wouldn't focus on the idea of "round the clock" nursing, because obviously that's panic-inducing, and also I don't think you have to go that route. That might be the fastest way to get your milk supply up to speed, but it is possible to phase out the supplements at a slower pace (see this link for a how-to: http://www.kellymom.com/bf/supply/decrease-formula.html).
I can totally understand not having time to pump. But, as I'm sure you know, getting going with the pump is the best way to an improved supply. Supplements and medications are nice, but in my experience they are not a replacement for frequent milk removal via pump or baby. Here are a few things that may help you find more time:
- Instead of washing the pump parts every time you pump, leave the pump screwed onto the bottle of milk and pop the whole assemblage in the fridge. When it's time to pump again, just reuse the same set-up. My LC said it was safe to do this once before washing everything again.
- Set up a large basin of soapy water next to the sink, and throw used bottles and pump parts in as necessary. I found it helpful to do one or two large washing-ups per day instead of a zillion little ones.
- If your other kids are young, make a special basket of toys/books/games that comes out only when it's time to pump. That may keep them out of your hair!
- Get help around the house, if possible. A babysitter, a grandma, a mother's helper...
Regarding the depression, is this normal exhaustion and baby blues, or do you feel like this could be PPD? If so, I encourage you to seek treatment. There are antidepressants that are compatible with breastfeeding.
Finally, don't beat yourself up over things not going right just yet. Having 1 baby is hard. Having 1 baby and problems with nursing is REALLY hard. Having nursing issues and premature twins... Gosh, that's gotta be a thousand times more difficult. We're all rooting for you, Mama! Those 2 oz/day are an amazing gift that you're giving your babies, and we'll do whatever we can to help you get them more.
Coolest thing my big girl said recently: "How can you tell the world is moving when you are standing on it?"
Coolest thing my little girl sang recently: "I love dat one-two pupples!"