My son is 14 1/2 months old.. still nurses frequently thru the day.. I think I am making about 30 ounces maybe a little less. So thats about 500-600 calories that I am burning daily making milk.
I am a busy girl. When I am at work, I am constantly walking, dashing down long hospital hallways, running to save a life etc. I never sit while I am at work.. and I work 13 hour days 3 days a week. When I am at home, I am constantly chasing a busy toddler, cleaning my house, doing laundry.. you get the picture. I have very minimal help at home, so I never have a second to rest. I sleep with my son and he wakes me up twice to nurse every single night at 4 am and 6 am. We don't usually fall asleep til 11 and I wake at 4:30 to get up for work on workdays. Off days I get to sleep til 8 maybe. I am burning the candle at both ends and I know it.. but right now I can't see where I can adjust things/no options for help at this point.
I am 26 years old and have always been healthy. When I was in high school I weighed 105-115. I am about 5 feet even, maybe 5'1. Before I got pregnant I weighed about 140. When I gave birth I had gotten up to about 180.
I currently weigh 101. So I have lost EIGHTY POUNDS since having Ben.
I went to my doctor several months ago because I had dropped down to about 110 and I was thinking.. is this normal?? I mean, I know I'm breastfeeding but geez. All my labwork came back perfect. She told me if I wanted to stop losing weight I could stop breastfeeding but that was up to me. DH and I discussed it, and I promised him I wouldn't kill myself to breastfeed Ben. We agreed if I hit 102 I would stop. But I can't!! I don't want to!!!
I allowed my milk supply to decrease slowly from 50 to 30 ounces.. thinking that would help.
I eat more calories, I eat Little Debbies daily lol!
I am tired of comments from coworkers etc asking me if I am okay, telling me to stop breastfeeding because it's sucking me dry, etc.
I don't know what to do, the thought of giving him cows milk makes me really sad. I know it's so stupid but I feel like a failure for some reason if I stop now.. because I think he still needs me to breastfeed him. And I honestly don't want to stop. I guess I could cut back to night time and naps.. but.. then do I need to supplement with cows milk? And he really doesn't eat enough solids I feel. He's such a milkman : )
The thought of stopping really depresses me.