I wrote in here several months ago when my eight month old went on a thirteen day nursing strike. It turned out he had strep, and after three days on an antiobiotic started nursing and everything went back to normal. He loved nursing again, and I was so relieved. Well, exactly three months later he went on another strike. This was last Monday. I got him on an antiobiotic that same day, but, he has decided to strike for good this time. He wasn't sick, he just decided to make a complete 180 switch from loving it on Sunday, to hating it on Monday. I am now feeding him from a dropper 5 times a day (he doesn't take a bottle), 1-2 ounces each time. He is peeing only about 3-4 times a day. He is not dehydrated, but he is still taking in a bare minimum of liquids, at least compared to what he did when he nursed. Oh, how I miss those really wet diapers! Now each diaper is light as a feather. He only takes miniscule sips out of a sippy/straw/cup, so I had to do the dropper. He is doing great with "people food," it is the lack of liquids that is the problem. I have no idea what the requirement of liquid ounces is for this age. He freaks when I try to nurse him. I only try a few times a day now. I am pumping, but rent the pump, so I will have to stop pumping when the pump is due back on Dec. 23.
To be honest, this post is more about me. I can't move past this. I am crying several times a day. I nursed my second 18 months, and my third for 30 months. This one is 11 months old, and you would think this is the end of the world, I am so depressed. Is there anyone who understands what I am feeling? I am actually mourning like someone has passed away. I can't stop thinking about this loss in our relationship. It is the first thing I think about when I wake up, and the last thing I think about before I fall asleep. He is not a cuddler, so that was the only time I had with him to cuddle. I am so sad and discouraged that this part of our relationship is over. I will keep trying to nurse him over the next few weeks, but the rejection I feel every time is so painful. I have tried every strategy, but he is stiff-arming me perfectly, even in the deepest parts of his sleep cycles. Thanks for reading this overly long post.