This is long but I really need to see if anyone can help!
I am really ready to stop breastfeeding. I can't handle fighting with my DS to get him to eat. He is almost 3 months old. A little over 2 weeks ago, he started fighting me every time I tried to breastfeed him. It literally came out of nowhere - one day fine, the next day he would cry if I tried or simply turn his head away. Sometimes he wouldn't even be upset but would simply refuse to eat. I am totally stressed and sad, sad, sad over this because previous to this he was eating so well. I took him to the doctor twice about this over the past two weeks, and they say there's nothing physically wrong with him -- no thrush, no reflux, no ear infection, no virus, etc. They think it's simply behavioral and seem to think he'll just go back to eating normally again. But now it's been over 2 weeks, and I'm beyond words or actions about this. I had been trying to drop feed him with pumped milk because I wanted to avoid the bottle, but that's not sustainable. First off, I simply do not have time to pump enough for him throughout the day -- I don't have anyone to come over and help watch him while I pump, and my husband's day is about 14 hours long so I'm home with DS alone for that whole time. Second, it takes forever to drop feed him and it is not going to work to keep doing that. I don't know if I have oversupply. He does sometimes cough when I start feeding him, but my breasts don't get engorged. He has been having watery poops that are sometimes green -- sometimes they have mucous in them and sometimes they are foamy because I have opened his diaper while he's still going, and I see the foam coming out. They used to be yellow and seedy but now even if there's yellow, they are more runny with mucous and with little seed. I completely eliminated dairy from my diet 2 weeks ago when this started (even hidden dairy), and now I'm eliminating soy. I don't know what's wrong. When he does eat, he will only eat for 5 minutes or so. Some days are better than others. I have tried skin-to-skin, feeding him in a sling, feeding him when he's sleepy (the only thing that somewhat seems to work when I'm rocking him in the glider, and he will wake up at night to eat for a little bit - we co-sleep). I just started trying to block feed in case it's oversupply but since he's not eating for long stretches, it's hard to know when to switch sides to try to feed him.
Weight gain so far:
Born: 7, 15oz.
1 month: 9, 15oz.
2 month: 12, 1oz.
1st appt to check weight (Nov. 16): 12, 2oz.
2nd appt to check weight (Nov. 22): 12, 9oz.
I had been on antibiotics but I've been off for over a week now. And it's not thrush -- no symptoms from either him or me. And he doesn't seem like his mouth is bothering him at all. He's doing tons of hand-sucking though and is seeming to prefer hand-sucking over feeding. He does have wet diapers and actually has quite a few poopy diapers a day still (but not "normal" poops as above) -- he started to do the whole "pooping a couple minutes into a feeding" thing and stops eating as soon as he starts pooping...so I'll change him and try to get him back on the breast but no, no, no.
I quite simply don't know what to do at this point. I am at a complete loss. I am completely, completely committed to breastfeeding, but what am I supposed to do???