After trying again today... I think I'm going to pump exclusively and feed that way. I know it's not ideal, but my relationship with her is seriously suffering. While I was very happy with her, ever since I started trying to make the switch I really don't have a good feeling about her. I just get frustrated, and can't wait for her to be done so I can put her down... wheras before I loved holding her, and felt very bonded. Now I'm feeling totally disconnected, and resent it when she wakes up.
Today I tried again... and then for this last feeding I pumped beforehand, and gave her a bottle. It was nice, when I was done feeding her I held her, and actually enjoyed her, and was happy to start cleaning etc. I feel so much more productive this way, and she seems so much more peaceful. I'm only 21, and I'm staying at my mom's house and not with my bf (I'll be going back there soon, but waiting on our room to be done). Nobody is here all day to help out, and they look at me like *What did you do all day* when I spend all day nursing. I dont want to be tied down to a room nursing all day for a few weeks until it gets better.
Is this plan ok? Or am I screwing up again?