I am also saying that you are just prolonging the inevitable. And that is completely your right. But WHENEVER you get to a place where you are comfortable feeding him solids he will have to learn how to eat them. A one year old who has never had solids doesn't just instinctively know how to eat them any better than an 8month old. What changes somehow with age is a mothers' confidence level not what a child can do without actually practicing. I completely feel you on the wasting breast milk. But as far as your child being "happier"....that's a stretch. They don't understand what food is. They just don't. They aren't eagerly waiting to do it. They aren't eating it because they are hungry. That's all projection. It literally takes them months to figure out that they taste with their tongues. It's all just experience. They think food comes from you. You may as well be finger painting or or playing in the sand as far a a reference point. If YOU are happier and more relaxed than great. Do what works for you. But I don't think that the fact that your child was puking or gagging means that the process wasn't working. Just that you weren't comfortable with the process.