I know I will get a lot of advice here as I have for the last 11.5 months which has been very helpful. I just have to say, I am done breastfeeding. I feel guilty even saying it here because of all that I read from other posts as it seems like I am the only mother here that is actually looking forward to weaning. I'm sure there will be some bittersweet moments and memories, but I am ready. I have successfully raised a baby on exclusively breastmilk while holding down a busy full time job (pumping anywhere from 3-6x a day) and nursing on demand at home. The kicker is, DD is nowhere near done. Am I a horrible mom?
DD turns 1 at the end of the month, and I always said I would BF at least a year. We have done it. I now need to know how to lovingly wean her. Her pediatrician said it is ok now to put cow's milk in a sippy cup to have her start to get used to it (she has been eating yogurt and cheese for months so I am not worried about allergies/milk tolerance. It is not replacing breastmilk intake). Well, she HATES it.
The other problem is that at daycare, she eats solids wonderfully. With me, I struggle to get even a third of what they feed her. She just wants to nurse and does so still on demand even though she is very scheduled at school. She is also still getting up 1-3x per night. I have been trying to nightwean and it is just not working. I can get her to fall asleep 10x in a row by rocking and paci and then as soon as I lay her down, bam, back up crying. If I nurse her she is asleep in 5 minutes. I nurse her down for naps, and I nurse her down at night. She is absolutely 100% addicted to nursing.
I know I am getting ahead of myself, she is not quite 1 yet. For the record, extended BF is not for me, regardless of how you paint the picture. Call me selfish, but I am tired and I want my body back. I feel like a horrible person for wanting to wean her. She does not have a blanket/lovie...I seem to serve that purpose. I love Madeline more than I ever thought I could love someone which is why I am feeling so guilty over this.
Sorry for rambling...I am just looking for a little support as I do not have any friends who are mothers, let alone mothers who nurse. Thanks for listening.