I decided to express breast milk after suffering the worst sleep deprivation ever. I was nursing my little boy constantly as he would only nurse for 5 -10 minutes on one breast and then fall asleep. Just as I thought I was getting the hang of it, one evening I was nursing him and I fell asleep, I realized it right away and I jerked so hard I thought I would drop him. I was crying so hysterically that my husband said I should pump so we could share the feeding experience. So I started pumping and he has been sleeping for at least 2 - 4 hours after each feeding. I feel extremely guilty b/c I feel so bad that we can't bond. I give him a pacifier and hold him close to my breast after each feeding so we can have that "bond". The comfort sucking seems to relax him. I feel bad b/c sometimes he roots for my breast and I want to cry. Is this bad of me ? It was either pump or get him on formula and I don't want to do that. I go back to work in 4 weeks and plan on still pumping. Is it bad that I am pumping so soon ? It also makes me feel good that I know exactly how much he is drinking as well.