Hi. I'm a new mum to a 6 weeks old baby boy. I breastfed him exclusively for the first 3 days and on the day we were due to leave the hospital, i was told that his sugar levels were too low and to give him formula while waiting for my milk to come in. I was very upset as the last thing i wanted to do was give him formula but i felt under pressure and didnt want to harm my baby. I tried cup feeding him but he didn't like it so i ended up giving him a bottle. I carried on breastfeeding normally after my milk came in but had an infection on day 6 following an episiotomy and fell ill with fever for 3 days so stopped breastfeeding and had to give my baby formula during this time. It was also very handy as my husband has been feeding him while i was resting in bed. When i felt better enough to breastfeed again, my baby wouldn't latch on and kept screaming every time i put him to the breast. I was devastated as i was determined to breastfeed and have really enjoyed doing it in the early days. I called the midwife in panic and she said to give him formula in a cup or a spoon to stop him going hungry but to carry on offering the breast until he takes it. My breasts were horribly engorged so my husband ran to the shop to buy me a breast pump. He got me a Medela mini electric pump which was great at doing the job and I felt so relieved afterwards. I carried on putting my son to the breast at every feed, he would latch on sometimes but most of the time he wouldn’t and screams the house down until I give him a bottle. I ended up with cracked and bleeding nipples so decided to give up trying. I felt so depressed and lonely for few days and would cry every time I had to give him a bottle. I was expressing breastmilk and gave him a bottle every day which made me feel slightly better but eventually I got so busy I couldn’t make time to express so I stopped and was exclusively bottle-feeding. I felt better for few days but lately I started to feel terribly guilty again. I keep thinking I should have persevered and asked for help but I was so sick the early days and could hardly walk so leaving my house to join a breastfeeding group or see a consultant wasn’t an option. Lately my baby started to scream in the middle and after feeding and the doctor thinks he might have silent reflux. This is making me feel more guilty and sad so I decided to explore the option of expressing exclusively. I read a lot on the subject and I know it’s hard work and requires dedication but I know that lots of mums have managed to do it for months and were successful and I am ready to do whatever it takes to make it work. My milk supply has dwindled dramatically since I stopped expressing in the early days, in fact I tried expressing a week ago and couldn’t get a single drop out so I thought my milk has dried up. But after speaking to a health visitor and getting some advice, I am now taking fenugreek capsules and eating oats and I started expressing again 2 days ago, every 3 or 4 hours, I only managed to express 1 oz in 2 days but it’s better than nothing I guess? I am still using my mini medela which is a good pump but not really strong so I have decided to buy an Ameda Lactaline pump and start to seriously express. The HV said to ask my GP for a prescription for Domperidone but my GP refused to give me one . I have also been trying lately to put him on the breast again, tried lots of skin to skin, baths together etc but nothing works. So I’d like to ask mums who went through a similar experience: Would buying a professional pump help re-establish my supply? How often should I express in the first days and how much milk should I expect to get before starting to see progress? Is it important to express at the same hours every day or it doesn’t matter as long as I express 8 to 10 times every day. Should I express at night while my baby is sleeping? What else can I do/eat to increase my supply? Any other advice would be greatly welcome. Thank you so much for reading this and I look forward to reading some positive feedback and stories from other mums.