I have had a very difficult time with BF. At this point it seems that the only reasonable thing to do is stop. Let me know what you all think:
My son was 2 months premature. He stayed in the NICU for 5 weeks, at that time I was pumping, but because of everything going on and postpartum depression, I didn't make pumping a priority as I should have. When he was 2.5 months old, I was making about 10-12 oz/day. Unfortuantly, he went back into the hospital for a little while (which was again stressful) and I slacked off on pumping during those weeks... and my milk went down to about 4 oz/day. Afterwords, I spent 2 months pumping religiously (and some bf) at least 8-12x a day and my milk went up to 9-10 oz/day.
For me, 9-10 oz/day was not worth the effort of pumping so much (and it is very hard to fit in 8-12 pumpings while taking care of a little one). At that point, my baby was very good at latching on and nursing so since then (about 2 months ago) I have just nursed him whenever.. and tried to enjoy bf instead of stressing over it... I occassionally pump on days he doesn't nurse at all or very little. Yesterday, however, I pumped all day and found that I was only making 4 ounces- which made me want to reevaluate my bf situation again.
I did try the Lact-Aid system, but (maybe it was bad timing) at that point, he was terrible at latching on and getting him to latch on with that little tube in the right place in his mouth was extremely frustrating and caused many tears on both sides. I haven't tried it since then, but it may work better at this point.
He's 7.5 months old now, and it has been an uphill battle the whole time, even so, I find it hard to give up bf all together. When I read of adoptive mothers bf I have to think it is possible...I just dont know if I would be willing to spend another 2 months pumping... especially when it hasnt worked in the past...
Thank you in advance for any advice.
Also- I have a double Medella pump, I have tried power pumping, Lact-Aid, co-sleeping (breifly in the mornings) and Mother's Milk Tea. One more note, I have always made more from one side (some times as much as 2x as much) even when I was using a double pump... so now there is a size difference between the two which kind of freeks me out an is another reason I am cosidering quiting.