I feel bad saying such a thing, but I think I need to start "hiding" the fact that I'm "still" nursing. Not that I'd ever deny it, but I think I may make a serious effort to never mention it again or do it in front of anyone again (which could subtley encourage weaning, I know).
I don't feel embarrassed about it, but after all this time I am TIRED OF DEFENDING IT.
When my son was a newborn I used to Nurse-In-Public at EVERY opportunity because I wanted to make it more of a Normal sight in my community and make it a little easier for the next round of new moms. :-)
But now, with nursing a toddler, I feel like I really do need to keep it all hidden in a closet or something. It's a shame really, since I know all the facts and know I am doing something great for my son & I should be willing to defend it as needed, but I AM TIRED, all the time I am tired, and I am losing the strength to keep hearing the negative comments and brush them off. They do effect me, even if I don't react overtly.
At 18 months I started getting so many comments at work that I stopped pumping so that I could stop hearing comments. Mind you, at that age I didnt need to be storing milk, I just wanted to keep my supply going. Not a big sacrifice, but also one I didn't really want to make yet!
At 20 months I realized all my friends were looking at me really funny if I mad any mention of nursing at all.
And when you nurse every single day, it's hard not to mention something at random, like "He nursed for 45 MINUTES this morning and I was late for work, what a crazy morning I had!" Just a normal vent but it immediately turns into "why don't you just STOP??"
And now at 23 months, nearing the 2 year mark, my immediate family has chimed in with comments too (I am lucky they have been so supportive this long!). But in the past week I've heard "he's not a baby any more" and "that's it, cut him off!" I don't even blame them for the comments, the people saying those things have never nursed a baby in their lives.
BUT I am tired of hearing it, and this leads me to want to start hiding nursing... which may end up tainting the experience.
I guess I am a sap who maybe should actually stop nursing like my friends and family suggest, maybe I am holding onto it just beacuse I actually like it and am proud of it, not because he "needs" it.
THanks for letting me type that all out!!!!