Hi everyone, I've posted a couple of times in the pumping forum but not here. This is something of a rant, I hope that's all right.
To cut a long story short, I don't breastfeed my 5 week old son anymore due to pain from a bad latch- despite having been told he's on perfectly. He gets milk and formula, sadly, and I really want to be able to stop pumping and giving him formula. A breastfeeding advisor was supposed to comd and see me but she and her colleague were on holiday or sick or both, I don't remember.
Today I went to a breastfeeding support group a couple of towns away. This was a major undertaking for me, 5 weeks post-caesarean, probably shouldn't be driving if I'm honest, definitely shouldn't be carrying a car seat... but I was desperate. And as you all know it's not easy to go anywhere with a little one anyway. I deliberately didn't feed my son before we went so he would be awake and wanting to be fed when we got there.
When we I there, son in sling, the receptionist told me there was no one to lead the group as the woman was away somewhere! And that I could use the room but I'd be on my own! Use the room? For what? I can't breastfeed, this is why I am here, because I am desperate! I just cried and walked out.
I'm so hacked off beyond words. How hard can it be to have got a replacement? This wasn't a mother and toddler coffee morning social, this was a group for desperate women wanting to feed their babies!
I feel worse than defeated. It's like the world just does not want my son to be fed the way I want him to be. Angry, upset, let down... I was so looking forward to just being able to feed him