Hi Everyone - I hope someone can give me some advice.
I want to start breastfeeding my 11 month old after an almost 4 month break. He was breastfed from birth and always fed well until at around 7 months his feeds got shorter and shorter to the point where he'd latch on for a few seconds then would want to wriggle off my knee. I thought he was weaning himself as I had never had any issues with my milk (that I was aware of). He just seemed more interested in anything else except breastfeeding. I tried lying in a quiet dark room etc but he would just get agitated. (I really wanted to feed him for as long as he would take it so I was quite upset when it stopped so soon). I eventually gave in and started giving him formula (I've never been able to pump much, even with an electric pump so I had no choice but to give formula) and he takes his bottles willingly. I still felt bad about stopping breastfeeding as I enjoyed it so I would occasionally offer but he wouldn't even look at it. After doing some online research it looks like it may have been a nursing strike (I have nobody to get help from physically as I live in a remote spanish mountain village). Now I feel that I should have done more to get him back to the breast and I'm hoping I can try again. I have started to take fenugreek to help the milk as there is some there - however it tastes horrible, really salty and I can't get rid of it. I have tried pumping but I only get a few drops and no let-down at all. I know I need to get rid of this salty milk but I don't know how! Also, I worry that if I do somehow manage to get rid of this milk and make better milk that my baby just won't be interested in trying it... is it worth the hasssle or should I just accept that my baby will not breastfeed again?