I wanted to breastfeed SO much, and always assumed I would just fine.
However, when I had my baby in May this year, I had a very difficult labour, caused by a bicornuate uterus, and then found out after an attempted manual removal of the placenta that I had placenta accreta. I tried to BF for a week after the birth but I had no milk, a jaundiced, dehydrated and very hungry baby. I ended up cup feeding formula for 3 weeks, when no progress has been made with my retained placenta (a third of it still inside me) and I still had no milk (because of the hormones still in the placenta apparently) I switched to bottles.
I spent 11 weeks offering Freya the breast before every feed, and pumping every time she had a bottle. I was in a lot of pain the whole time, had 2 D&Cs to try and remove the placenta (unsuccessful), all in all taking a lot of antibiotics and spending a lot of time in hospital. I was so demoralised and gave up after those 11 weeks. I never produced any milk and Freya refused to latch on.
My placenta came out at 14 weeks after another week in hospital.
Freya is now 5 months and I am still so upset at not BFing. I would like to try to relactate, even if I only ever get enough milk for one feed a day. I am aware it may have to be out of a bottle as she has not latched on since she was about 3 weeks old. I tried nipple shields, fenugreek (which I still have available), 2 hourly pumping (I only have a manual pump), feeding in the bath, bed, skin to skin etc, nothing worked.
How likely is it that if I try now I will achieve something? Could I ever get her to latch on? How do I go about this? I don't want to start if there is no hope or with unrealistic expectations.
Thanks for reading, sorry it's so long.