Today I feel like I made a big mistake I felt so horrible for allowing my little girl to be vaccinated. This was only my 3 rd visit to the pediatrician since coming home from the NICU. I tried asking more questions and the doctor kind of switched things on me and made me feel like I was a bad mother for even thinking about not giving her the vaccines. I feel like since have such an early preemie the Docs act like everything is necessary for her to take and if not than I'm leaving her to get sick. She has told me that the flu shots are next and I just don't feel comfortable going through with this anymore. Even after mentioning that there have been links to vaccines and disorders she said that they have all been studied and there are no ties to vaccines and any disorders in children.
Not to mentions when I asked her about when I could fully breastfeed her she looked at me as if I had five heads. First I ask how long she would need the 30 cal ( Enfacare and oil added to my breastmilk, YUK!) since I don't feel comfortable giving that to her for too long. She said Oh she'll need that for a long time, then she'll need Neosure for a year. So i said what about breastfeeeding her I can only do it twice a day now. She said well then just give her Neosure after, I said what just formula you mean, she said yes! I don't ever want her to be on formula, I say. At this point I realize she is disregarding my desire to give her just breastmilk. She said to me then, what are you options? ..I fumbled over my words and said pump for a year, confused. Why was she putting me in this position to ask me and second guess myself. Then she said well you'll have to Pump then. I left the office with my upset baby and in tears from her shots and more confused than ever.
Can I not continue with the Vax schedule at this point? Who has had this experience? How About the 30 cal recipe for breastmilk and the Neosure which I haven't used at this point. Has anyone used these or been told to use them?
I think I need a new pediatrician even though she is supposedly great with preemies. I just don't feel like I did the right thing and i was persuaded to believe well your baby is a preemie she needs these things like vax, and flu shots and formula......why???? Help Sorry for rambling but I'm so upset right now....and my husband thinks this is all to much for a little baby's body to handle at once.
(She is 6lbs 8 oz today and was born at 1lbs 4 oz for reference of where she is at. Her corrected age now is 1 month but she is 4 months from when she was born.)