For the past week and a half, Emma (31mo) has nursed only in the morning (we finally dropped the bedtime session). She's also been sleeping on a mat on the floor in our room off and on for naps and during part of the night because she wanted to, but was still waking up during the night and getting in bed with us. But she slept there all night last night - woke up at 6:30 this morning and walked out of our bedroom calling me and asking where her cat was. I was still in bed, so I got up and came out to get her and told her it was where she was sleeping, so we went and got her stuffed cat. She was all chit chatty and wanted to play with her new duplo table, so off we went. She *forgot* to ask to nurse until about 20 minutes later and I was able to distract her really easily again. Then when she asked again and started getting fussy about it I asked her if she wanted something special to drink instead of nursing - I told her she could have some pop mixed with lemonade so I put a tiny bit of sierra mist in with lemonade and gave it to her. She's been fine ever since. We went to the grocery store today and bought her some "special" soda (sparkling water) to have instead of nursing now and she's all happy about it. But, she did tell me "mommy I can drink my special soda and then when it's all gone I can nurse." And I explained how that wouldn't happen, it was nursing or special soda. She was good with it. We told daddy about it on the phone and if I could have seen his face, I know he was because he doesn't want me to wean her and thinks I should give her at least until she's 3 yrs old.
So, I *think* this could be my oppotunity to wean her completely. I do think she will be sad and stuff and there will be tears when the special soda fun wears off and she wants to nurse again. I'm not sure really how to proceed. I always thought child-led weaning was the way to go, but I haven't been able to do it. I started having her "wait" to nurse until we got home from somewhere at 15 months, then from 18-21 months I night-weaned her, and then we've slowly cut back on daytime sessions from there. I've been struggling to nurse her lately and really wanted it to be over, but I also feel guilty for "taking it away from her" because she tells me all the time how she loves mommy's milk and how it tastes so good. And despite wanting her to be done, now that the opportunity is here to be done, I feel a little sad. I've nursed her every.single.day for 31months, including through a difficult pregnancy and 10 day stay in the hospital, and to never nurse her again is giving me this lump in my throat.
What should I do? Take this and run with it, or let her nurse tomorrow morning if she asks to? This is such a big step for us, in unchartered waters. I'm not sure if I should be happy or cry.