Re: Restarting breastfeeding
Hi Mama! I am sorry your birth and first few weeks of breastfeeding was so difficult. You really got a rough start.
But it is totally possible to restart breastfeeding. Will your baby still take the breast? Some moms are able to relactate through nursing alone (my mom did back in 1982 after 3 months off).
Here are some links that may be helpful:
Relactation and Adoptive Breastfeeding
Weaning from Formula Supplements
Help - My Baby Won't Nurse!
Prescription Drugs for Increasing Milk Supply
In your shoes, I would also go and see a lactation consultant (preferably an IBCLC). She can help you get your baby back to the breast and can help you increase your supply. If one IBCLC isn't helpful, go see another one. Each LC knows slightly different tricks and may perceive different issues, so it makes sense to get the second opinion. You might want to talk to the LC(s) about using a supplemental nursing system (SNS). With a SNS, all feeding takes place at the breast, reducing nipple confusion, and since the baby sucks simultaneously from the breast and the SNS tube, your supply gets stimulated even as you supplement. (Pumping is still vital, however!)
It is quite possible that your traumatic delivery is responsible for the supply issues you experienced. Pain, stress, and large volumes of blood loss can all impact a mother's supply and ability to nurse. Babies delivered via forceps can also have problems nursing due (as far as I know) to the difficulty of getting into a comfortable position after an uncomfortable birth. If you had any form of pain relief during birth, that may also have impacted your baby's willingness to nurse. Also, since you had thrush it is quite possible that your baby had it too, and babies with thrush often nurse poorly due to discomfort, and poor nursing can result in lowered supply.
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