I really want to be done nursing Emma but she doesn't seem willing to let go of her last 2 sessions. I know in my heart she's not quite ready to be done completely, but honestly I think it's because she likes my milk not so much because she needs the comfort - at least that seems to be true 90% of the time. I feel like we've done this for 2 1/2 years, I am REALLY HAPPY when she doesn't ask, and really want to enjoy nursing Owen, which right now I feel so annoyed by having to nurse her that I don't really enjoy nursing him (although is it just less "magical" with a second child?). BUT, at the same time I can say, she's only 2 1/2 years old, she loves to nurse (asks several times a day, gets really excited in the morning and night when she's allowed to and tells me "mommy I so excited to nurse" and is especially happy when she nurses at the same time as Owen, and I feel guilty for even wanting it to end but I do. I'm sure I'll be a little sad after but I think I'll be mostly relieved when she's done. I've been trying to tell myself "you'll be sad when it's over, so let her keep going" plus I know it's still good for her. I read articles on the benefits of extended breastfeeding and that helps me keep going for a bit, but it's getting less and less effective for me.
I just feel like I'm in a no-win situation here. If I keep going, I'm unhappy about it, but if I stop she will be really unhappy. What do I do? Is there some way I can get the desire to keep providing this for her back? And how do I feel like I'm not cheating Owen out of the deal because I am just sick of nursing.