I MUST APOLOGIZE FOR HOW LONG THIS POST IS BUT WE NEED HELP!
Hi everyone -
I am an "experienced" nursing mother (I guess you'd say) having nursed two other children for over a year each but have found a new challenge with this new little girl in our lives. Here’s a little history:
April 28th I was rushed via ambulance to the hospital due to an unknown disorder called HELLP where my 37 week old baby was delivered by c-section weighing only 4 lbs 12 oz. She was put on formula and given a bottle while in the NICU. Once I was conscience I slowly started nursing along with the bottle feedings things were going pretty good and after a day she was nursing more than getting formula. Unfortunately, I was released from the hospital before she was and she was back to bottle feedings more than nursing though I still came to nurse her 2-3 times a day and pumped a couple of times while away. She had lost a few ounces as to why she was still at the hospital but a day later she was able to gain an ounce and go home. So she came home weighing 4 lbs 7oz. We stopped bottle feeding after the second night going to EBF but at her next doctor’s appointment she only weighed 4lbs 6oz (it was 2 days from when she was released from the hospital). At her 2 week appointment (1 week later) she had lost 6 oz!!! I completely lost it and decided to put her on the bottle. We had been nursing nonstop all week day and night. I can’t believe she didn’t gain or at least stay the same. The doctor recommended a high calorie formula (she was on soy at the hospital) which would allow her to gain quickly. We agreed she suggested pumping but I absolutely HATE pumping and really don’t get much when I do which only frustrates me further. I have never been too good at it I have EBF two children with very little pumping at any time. We gave her the formula as soon as we got home which she threw up within the hour. Though it did make her have a BM after 2 days of not going. Although I despise it I pumped 2 oz of which she drank 1 oz from a bottle. She kept gagging but she did not throw up. Her next feeding we tried the formula again which threw up ½ the feeding. Finally at about 5:00 the next morning I realized she was only able to keep down ½ an ounce of formula or breast milk. The doctor has since told me to give her Pedialyte which she has kept down as well as consistently drinking ½ ounce of formula every hour. The dr wants her drinking more but thats all her little belly can take.
The problem is that’s not enough. My DH tried to get her to drink more than she wanted and she promptly threw that up too. I feel that our nursing has been greatly compromised and I really don’t know whether or not its in her best interest to do so. I have tried to nurse her again since switching to bottles but my supply is getting low and she seemed frustrated about not getting anything out right away. My nipples are definitely sore from the marathon nursing we had been doing not to mention some nipple confusion that has set in. I feel so sorry for my baby. I don’t even know at this point if I want to nurse her because she lost so much while EBF. I am worried about her health she is too small to do too much waiting and seeing. I am hoping someone here has some ideas or advice. We are desperate. I know I am going to miss the nursing experience with her but I think it more important that she grows quickly.