I am a 27 yr old mother of two beautiful girls of 36 months and 15 months. I knew before I ever got married that I wanted to breastfeed, and I am still very determined. I just find myself second guessing myself a lot recently. I know that I am not alone in these feelings, so I could really use some advice and encouragement from those of you who have been there and are there with me right now. Thank you in advance!
1) I stopped nursing my 1st at 15 months when I found out I was pregnant with our 2nd a month earlier. It was a lot easier than I expected. I made the panicked decision because I was working from home at the time, pregnant, and could not see myself trying to tandem feed. I wanted there to be enough time between the two so that my 1st would not be as jealous of the new nursing baby. Everything went according to plan. My doubts: I wish that I had continued to nurse my 1st now. She has asked to nurse since and does not remember how. She also has had a lot of health problems (colds, ear infections, asthma) since weaning. Granted she has never been a really healthy child, but I can't help but think that she would not have the problems she has now with fear/anxiety and health if I had continued to BF?
2) My 2nd is still nursing and I am determined to continue as long as she wants to, but I have to have a hysterectomy in less than a month and I'm not sure how to handle things. I know that I CAN continue; it is the how that I'm unsure of! She is VERY dependent on Mommy, and nurses frequently during the day and night for feeding and comfort. I have to pump and dump right after surgery. How do I make this easier on her while I am unable to nurse her? Also, the Ped told me today at her 15 month check up that she is not getting enough calories. She has gone from the 75th, 50th, 10th, and now 5th percentile at each check up in her weight, but has been growing in height steadily. (she is 18 lbs 10 oz and 31 " long) Should I be worried about this?
I am sure that I am over thinking things and appreciate your understanding and support.