I am weaning my 13 month old son with great sadness this week. I was diagnosed with CML (a form of leukemia) a few months ago and need to start a form of chemotherapy. My doctor stated that I would need to stop breastfeeding before I start the medication. I knew that it would be hard but I didn't realize how difficult it would be emotionally for me. I nursed my daughter (who is now almost 5) until she was 3 years/2 months old. It was such a great bonding experience. Whenever she needed comfort, I was able to give it to her. I am so sad that I will not be able to offer the same thing to my son. He will not take a bottle as he has been exclusively breast feed up to this point. There are so many times when I see mothers that do not nurse and how difficult it is for them to comfort their babies versus the mothers that can offer immediate comfort. My husband doesn't really understand what I am going through and doesn't offer very much emotional support regarding this difficult change for me. I guess I just needed to express my sadness and get some encouragement for this difficult transition for me and my little boy. I know I will be missing out on the next 2 years of bonding and closeness that I took for granted I would have again with my second child.