I am so exhausted and I just need some encouragement. I have been back to work for two weeks now and I just want to crawl under my desk and sleep and cry.
The interrupted sleep was somewhat manageable while I was at home but now that I am getting up every morning, getting baby ready, coming to work, nursing during lunch and pumping the rest of the time and trying to keep up with house and meals, I just don't know how I am gonna keep going.
Then to top it off the last three days I must have caught some sort of virus or flue because my entire body is aching and I feel just miserable.
I worry if baby is gaining enough weight. He is much smaller then most babies at 13 weeks. He is happy though, he smiles a lot and has lots of wet diapers so I am going to try to trust that nursing is going ok. And he is wonderful to be with. That's my rainbow in the midst of all this difficulty.
But is all this fatigue going to dry up my milk supply? I know the things I am experiencing are no different then what all other mothers experience but its just that how do you guys keep going? How do you cope with the exhaustion especially when you catch the cold or the flu?
I've read articles about how sleep deprivation makes you more susceptible to colds but those articles, short of listing the hundreds of ways that sleep deprivation can destroy your health, offer little to no useful advice. They all just say we need more sleep. But how can I do that when I am working full time and nursing? I can't.
I don't meant to complain so much but gosh, going back to work is really taking its toll.