This really isn't a question, just a vent and looking for support. I am starting to wean my 10 month old today. I feel silly because I am so upset about it. Especially since I have a lengthy weaning plan that will span 2 more months or so. Just today is the first day that I am reducing her nursing. I have had the blessing of having a job that allowed me to go to her day care and nurse her twice a day. Today I will only go once and I feel like my heart is breaking. I know that it may seem dramatic but that is how I feel. The reason why I'm doing this is because I'm about to change jobs and will only be able to go to her day care once a day. A few weeks ago I was upset that I would have to send formula with her (I have pumped and continue to pump but don't have enough to send two bottles with her - one for her breakfast that I have always sent and then the one for her lunch time 11a feeding, the nursing time that I'm cutting out today). However, I think I'm over the formula vs. breastmilk thing because that is just what has to happen. I know that weaning has to happen sometime too. I'm just really struggeling with it this morning and feel like crying. I cried last night a little too, just thinking about today. I'm going to be one of those mamas that cry at every little milestone and sign of independence.
I don't know, I just thought I would post here because none of my friends really breastfed for as long as I have and didn't seem to have the attachment/commitment to breastfeeding that I do.
Thanks for any thoughts or support!