We've been working on night weaning. At first it was rough but the past few nights it's been better. We had one 8 hour night even!
What I was doing was a modified Dr. jay Gordons method. Nursing her to sleep the first time and then weaning out other night feedings. It's been two nights of absolutely no nursing after the first nurse to sleep.
Tonight DD was really really really tired. She only napped once and it was less than an hour. I stuck to the routine (although earlier than usual). She wouldn't stay in her bath. Screaming fits. She loooves her bath usually. So I got her out, pjs on. Said goodnights to daddy. Sat down to nurse. I offer the breast. She just looks at me. I kind of lean forward and she puts her mouth around it but doesn't close it and then pulls back. Confused I offer again and she bit me! I yelled ouch! She started screaming. I shift her up and she puts her head on my shoulder. But she keeps pulling up and looking at me and crying. Confused I put her in her crib and sure enough she rolls over and is asleep within seconds.
Good right? Totally self soothed. Exactly what I've been wanting for a loong time.
And yet I feel so rejected
I realized she didn't nurse this afternoon either. Lately she's been nursing early morning, late morning, mid afternoon and bedtime. So that means she nursed all of twice today! (on a side note AF returned for the first time yesterday so maybe she's frustrated with my already dwindling supply?)
I should be happy right? I thought about weaning for a good two months to be sure it's what I wanted before starting. I still want to. But I'm sad.