Today is the first day in 21 months that I have not sent breast milk to daycare for DD. I just don't seem to be able to pump much anymore. I only work for 3.5 hours on Fridays, so I think I will cut out Friday milk, and send a little extra on Mondays. This is so nerve racking to me. I know she'll be fine, (she's been with Mother in law before, who refused to give her the mommy milk), it just feels so strange.
And to add another twist on my emotions, Last night for the first time in 21 months, my little girl put herself to bed. No mommy to snuggle, no bobbie. She has never gone to be without me, she asked me to give her boobie in bed and I said I would be there in a minute, she went to bed sang herself a song, and fell asleep without me. She is healthy, happy and wonderful...so why am I so sad!