Hi, i wonder if anyone else out there has felt like this...
I have 2 DDs 25 months and 9 months. DD1 never stopped BF throughout my pregnancy though did cut down a lot. After DD2 arrived DD1 thought it was brilliant as there was milk everywhere - I mean everywhere - and started nursing many times a day (though she has been night weened since about 12 months)
This has been fine and we have settled into a her feeding first and last thing and sometimes in the day if she is particularly grumpy, tired or had a big fall.
This has been working OK but in the last few weeks I have been having more and more feelings of aversion when she latches on. I had this before when i was pregnant but I knew that there was an end to this and many hormones to blame. What do I do now - I don't want to be the one to force weaning for her and trust me she does NOT want to stop mummy milkie. It is particularly bad when I'm tired.
Any suggestions very gratefully received or just someone to tell me I'm not alone or horrible for feeling like this. It upsets me so much to get so upset in myself I have to stop her before she's ready as I can feel the rage growing inside me and I want to put her out the window (written down this looks scary and I want to say I never never would, more likely just collapse in a blubbering heap)
I don't feel like this at all when DD2 feeds (good thing really as she feeds to sleep) and other times it feels as great as it has for the last 2 years being able to connect and have such a loving time with both my girls.