I think we're going to have to throw in the towel. I have been struggling ever since I went back to work to BF Katy. My supply has been terrible, and there's not a whole lot I can do since it's literally almost impossible to pump as often or as long as I need to to keep it up. Every time I try to sit down and pump, something comes up with one of my other kids, and since I'm a single mom, there's no one else there to take care of it, which means pumping goes out the window. Katy doesn't nurse for more than 2 or 3 minutes on each side now before there's nothing left, and then I try to keep her sucking longer, but she wont do it. I was so determined to keep this up for at least a year this time, but it's just not happening. I feel like such a total failure, and such a rotten mom for not eing able to do something so freaking basic for my daughter. Why does something that is supposed to be so natural and the best thing for your kids have to be so damn difficult? Things got better briefly when my doctor put me on Reglan, but of course that was only for 2 weeks, and as soon as I ran out, supply went right back in the tubesand they won't let me stay on it. Now both my doctor and their ped. are saying to just give it up, there's nothing I can do. I hate the thought of not BFing her anymore, b/c I love doing it. There's just not enough there for her, and I don't know how to pull back out of this without spending half my time attached to the pump and completely ignoring my other 2 kids. I have been in a total state over this for about 2 days now, and I am getting seriously, seriously depressed about it. Should I just give it up? Or should I just let my 2 yo run wild, and ignore my 5 yo so that I can spend 20 minutes every 2 hours attached to the pump, and the rest of my time trying to do the basics, like make meals, and do chores, and give baths, etc.? I hate being a single parent, I hate that no one I know gives a damn if I BF or not, I hate feeling like I am a terrible mother just be/c I can't BF, despite the fact that I spend all day, every day working my ass off to take care of these kids. Sorry this is so long, I know some of it doesn't make much sense, I jsut don't know what to do anymore, and I am so upset and so frustrated.