As you all known, I am 14 days into relactation for my almost 5 month old DS. He was breastfed for 2 days after birth and I caved in and gave him formula when he had bad jaundice. My mother told me that his jaundice was my fault and how he wouldn't get better until I fed him some 'real food'. Being young, a first time mom and uninformed, I listened to her and gave him formula. He has been formula fed since.
In 14 days, I have made huge strides. I was completely dried up and now am producing a decent amount of milk. I still can't pump it out (just started getting drops today so hopefully that means something) but I manually express it all out so that my body creates more.
My family does not know, with the exception of my great grandmother. She has kept this a secret so far. She keeps asking me how it's going and all and I sometimes feel like she's supporting me, even though she doesn't understand it. When I first started this process, she asked me why I even wanted to do this since you stop breastfeeding at 9 months anyway. Now that DS is a bit older (I broached the idea of relactation when he just turned 4 months), my family is on me about solid foods. I am refusing (and he doesn't need them!) to feed solids as I know that will throw out any chances of getting him back to the breast. She asked me today if I'll be giving him solids at 6 months and I told her that we'd see but if he was getting only breastmilk and no formula, probably not. She then went into a lecture about how he needs foods and how he can't get all the vitamins that he needs from me. Now, I know this isn't true but the fact that she would say that makes me have a bit less confidence in my milk. I keep telling her that solids will come but at his age, they have little nutritional value and are for experimention more than anything. She doesn't believe that. I guess when we were all little, we were given enough solids to get us off formula. She keeps saying how I had solids at 3 months and how my baby MUST be hungry. I try not to take it to heart but it really hurts.
I know I wouldn't have support from my mom or from anyone else in my family. DH supports me (in both relactating and delaying solids). Sometimes it's depressing to feel so alone in this battle. I also have severe PPD (under control with meds) and sometimes I think that has a bit to do with how I feel.
Why can't anyone understand how precious my milk is? My grandma was reading the can of formula the other day and because it says that it has DHA and ARA, the nutrients found in breastmilk, she said 'see, this stuff is the same as breastmilk so why are you doing what you're doing?'. I couldn't even begin to explain the differences to her. All I said was, 'Gran, that's not the same as breastmilk, in any way, shape, or form. That is man-made and packed full of preservatives and chemicals. MY milk is much much better for him.'. She just looked at me funny...
So, I'm wondering how the other relactating mama's deal with the lack of support from family... I try really hard not to let it bother me but sometimes it gets to me when I know how hard I am working to create this amazing milk for my baby.