I am having a lot of mixed feelings about nursing these days. I have a really needy baby. She's 8 (almost 9) months. Nurses about 5ish times a day on average and ALL night. She's up every 1-2 hours at night. We have a lot of sleep problems (if you frequent the sleep threads I am sure you know this!). In terms of solids up until about 3 days ago she ate 1/3 a jar of fruit for breakfast, half a jar of veggie, supper she ate 1/2 jar of veggie and sometimes 1/3-1/2 jar of fruit. (so total 1 - 1.5 small jars a day). I give her finger foods here and there and she LOVES self feeding. She is just a super active child and gets bored after eating like 5 cheerios or 7 peas... (i.e. she doesn't get much into her belly). Three days ago she decided she's done with purees and wants only finger foods - which would be fine with me, if she'd actually EAT more finger foods. I know up until 12 months breastmilk is where they get their nutrients, but if she's nursing 8-10 times a night, I want to make sure it's not cus she's hungry before I stop nursing her. I've tried adding more nursing sessions during the day but she's just not interested. She nurses to sleep usually. The other day she was sleepy, but not asking to nurse yet. I deparately wanted the wash to finish (there were 5 min left) so I could throw the stuff in teh dryer before sitting down to nurse her to sleep (and thus go to bed right away and not have to worry aout puttin gthe stuff in the dryer or forgetting and having stinky wet clothes the next day). Anyway DD nestled her head down onto my shoulder and cuddled. So I walked and rocked her to sleep and I realized that I enjoyed that sooo much more than nursing her. I think I am beginning to resent nursing!! I know it's not the fact that I bf that makes her so clingy to me (I have to bring her to the bathroom with me when I pee or she screams bloody murder) or that she doesn't sleep at night. But I think I am blaming it anyway. It's starting to really get to me that she is so glued to my breasts. I want to nurse her until 1 year. We really only have a few months to go. But it feels so far away!! I can't even really consider it earlier because she got formula on two separate occasions a little over a month a go and vomitted severely afterward. I haven't talked with her Ped yet about it because it is ridculously hard to get through when you call (I've tried 4 ish times) and now we're busy with holidays. So it'll end up waiting until the end of Jan when she has her next check up before I can talk to him about it. I'm not keen on the idea of experimenting by randomly trying out different forumlas to see which ones don't make the poor baby puke. So at this age with no formula option I CAN'T wean even if I decided to. I love that I'm giving her the best with my milk. I love the idea of nursing. Right now I am just not loving nursing. I'm not loving tha my nearly 9 month old is still on my breasts 15 times a day (24hrs)!! I'm not enjoying that she feels like she needs to wrap her fingers in my hair and pull as she nurses (and screams if I don't let her). I want to make it to 12 months. I don't even think I'd now HOW to wean if I chose to. But I'm so tired of having a baby attached to my boob 24-7. I can't wear a sling, the weight hurts and DD hates it. I sold the one I had. Did I mention that she still hasn't set a schedule? Everyone tells me to feed on demand and that eventually babies end up on their own schedule. There's no schedule. Everything is random. I've tried implementing one. But how to you nurse a baby to sleep when they don't want to nurse and they don't want to sleep? Ugh!