I feel like everything I do I do it wrong!
I returned to work 3 weeks ago (this is my 4th), and my baby daghter turns 3mo today, I've been pumping at work and BFing her in the evening, at night and weekends (so far she've been on BM exclusively). Lately she started crying after each feeding, I burp her, put her back, but no, she cries and won't nurse any longer (starts crying after like 7-10 min). She probably is not hungry, because otherwise dhe'd cry, right? I just have a feeling that very soon she'd reject me. But she LOVES to "nurse" at night, when she has to fall asleep for the night also...She sleeps with me (another thing everybody disapproves of, and I don't know how to stop) and I guess its my fault that some nights she wants her boobs every 2 hours!
Another thing we have with her is that she won't fall asleep easily, since she was born, every time something new though, at the beginning she'd not fll asleep till 2am, so we had to rock her for hours!!! Then I "discovered" and "easy" way to make her fall asleep by using nursing, so little by little she started falling asleep between 9 and 11, which is better than 2am! She was calmer and seemed happy. All of a sudden last week she stopped napping after 2-3pm, so by the time I'd bath her she'd be soooooo irritated, I'd try to put her to sleep at around 6-7pm, but she'd be so unhappy, fussy and crying, so we can't put her to sleep for hours, and she screams at the breast as well, so even that doesn't work! I though she was overtire, so tried to make her nap after 3pm, she did yesterday (mostly in my arms though), and seemed so much happier, I bathed her at around 7:30 and nursed her (she nursed pretty well, first time after the whole day of driving me crazy, as I described above) and she was in a great mood, not sleepy at all, so we played with her till 9 and at 9:20 my DH made her fall asleep IN HER CRIB!!! For 30 min (enough for him to fall alseep and not hear anything:-)...And then she was back in my bed, nursing to sleep...For another 2.5 hours. She was nursing, falling asleep (what seemed deep), letting the boob go, and right after i'd lie down and close my eyes (3min?) she'd open hers...And she did it 4 times! And then I couldn't take it anymore, so i gave her paci, wich she took (with some fight) and in 5 min was asleep and spit it out in another 5min. So I don't know what to do with her sleeping with me and constantly nursing (or crying, and not wanting to nurse, but then nothing seems to calm her down), I can't experiment, because I'm tired, I have to get up for work at 4:50am, but ususally do earlier, cause I nurse her before I leave and then pump the rest...My mom tells me to relax and go with the flow, first wait till she starts falling asleep faster and then start putting her in hwer crib, but I'm afraid that by then she will be needing nursing to sleep even more. And what do I do with her nursing every 2 hours some nights? Isn't she supposed to sleep for at least 4-5 hours straight by now??? How come I don't know anything and can't fo anything right??? I'm so lost and don't know what I'm doing anymore... Sorry for such a long "letter", but its a cry