My son is 5 months old and received no formula until a few days ago. A month ago I started pumping in place of one feeding in order to produce milk for the cereal we started giving him. (Please don't start arguing with me on that. Our pediatrician ordered it in an attempt to increase his weight gain. She is old school and old world and so are we (from former USSR) and that is how it had been done for decades.)
I struggled with pumping a bit because I was using a manual pump. But then I rented a Symphony and things started going great. I built up a nice surplus in the freezer. Then suddenly one evening a week ago I sat down to nurse and nothing! No letdown! My poor baby pulled off with the kind of cry that breaks a mother's heart. I've had problems with letdown ever since. It's been extremely slow. I started pumping instead of nursing during the day to try and save those night, morning, and evening nursings. I am worried that my son will reject the breast altogether because it frustrates him so much.
Could it be because my breasts and/or my brain got re-conditioned to react to the pump instead of the baby? What can I do?
I mean, I've had quite a bit of stress. I've returned to work (a month ago). My boss allowed me to work from home most of the time as long as I "produce" which is pretty stressful in this economy. There are other things too. And I am just not a relaxed type. I don't know what to do. I am not ready to give up yet, but I find myself dreading every nursing.