When my son was born I had a lot of blood loss and was very weak and passing out so I was not able to hold or nurse him for over 4 hours. I tried to nurse him for about 3 weeks but he was not latching on right and he was never satisfied with the amount he was getting. My nipples were cracked and bleeding and I had PPD and a screaming baby who wanted to eat all the time because he was never getting full. Then we both got thrush.
I bought a Medela Pump in Style Advance. I continued to try to nurse and give him expressed milk from a bottle. My milk supply was slowly decreasing and his appetite was increasing. At 2 months old he was eating 42 ounces a day. I was able to pump 24-30 ounces a day. I started supplementing with formula. My supply kept decreasing and by the time he was 3 months I was only able to pump 6-8 ounces a day, so I quit trying. After about a week my milk dried up.
So, that is the background story.
I really want to nurse again. I have been struggling with feeling like a failure because I'm not nursing. Winter is coming and I would really like for him to get the immune boosting benefits from breastmilk. My husband lost his 2nd job (he was working 2 just to get by) but we still make just a few dollars too much to get WIC. Formula is really expensive.
Is there any way I can still breastfeed my son? He is now 4 1/2 months old. He is eating a little bit of solids and drinking 36 ounces of formula a day. He weighs 19 pounds and is 26 inches long, so he is a big boy. He is also VERY stubborn (he gets that from me LOL!)