I want to know if we are weaning . . . Please correct me if I'm wrong about terminology here, but I am calling BFing when a baby actually drinks BMilk and nursing when they are suckling for comfort.
As of Oct. 19 we have been BFing for one year. I've been BFing on demand the entire time. She finally began sleeping through the night in early Sept., so she hasn't demanded it from 8pm-6am in about 7 weeks. There have been a few nights where she needed comforting due to teething where I brought her into the bed with me and let her nurse until she fell back asleep.
I decided long ago to do child-led. She is only demanding true BFing 2-3 times a day now. In the morning upon first waking up, which is usually around 6-6:30am, she truly BFeeds, taking a big meal of milk. At night she nurses, but I'm pretty sure she's only taking a little milk right at first, for maybe a minute, but continues to suckle for comfort until she falls asleep. Sometimes she wants to BF at her midday naptime which is around noon, and sometimes she only nurses.
Also, I am experiencing some weird emotional stuff. I'm getting tired very easily even though I haven't been sleep derived in weeks. My eagerness to do things I usually like to do has vanished. I'm experiencing ridiculous memory loss and not connecting the dots mentally the way a normal person does. I am feeling skittish, worried, on pins and needles. Maybe hormones are off the chart?
I'm not typical in that I am not sad about weaning per se. I have times when I know there will never be another time like this, where my daughter and I are such a symbiotic unit, where we are so interdependent in the healthiest of ways, the most positive, nurturing of ways. I get wistful about it, teary a little, but I am one who moves on quickly and I am sure we will find new ways of being close. Point being, that I don't think the emotional stuff is grief over the end of BFing. But I do think it's hormonal. anyway this is getting longwinded . . . any thoughts? are we beginning to wean? what should I be on the lookout for? thanks.