I don't think he's going to start up again. He says its "Lucy's milk" now. I've gotten him to latch on, but he won't really suck, giggles about it, and then says no. Of course I don't want to FORCE him to nurse. But LLLadies, I miss him so badly. You'd think a newborn nursing would fill that void...but it doesn't. I want to connect with HIM!
I want to "trick" him into nursing again by trying to nurse him in the night. But then, I know I'm only doing that for me. I want him to remember how miuch he loved nursing before my milk dried up. Neither of us were ready to stop when I got pregnant, but nature ended it for us.
I feel like when I nursed Daniel it made up for all the areas in Mothering that I am weak in. Without it I am at a loss. Who are WE when we aren't nursing. I try to tickle him, wrestle with him, play with him, and he loves it. But my body aches to nurse him again.
Please tell me this will get easier.