In response to my husband being laid off, I am about ready to start a job, my first since I had my first child in 2006. I have been a SAHM the whole time. However, I can make more money than him (a lot more) because I have my degree. It makes sense and it is the right thing to do. So why do I feel like I want to cry and cry? I feel like my whole world is over and all I want is to hold my little ones and never let go!!! My dh is kind of worried about being a SAH hubby too and I think we are both so very very distressed! To top it off, I am not sure how well I am going to be able to keep up bfing since I will be away from monday to friday for 5 weeks. I am not just giving up, but it is going to be SO hard. My youngest is 9 months and I feel like I am abandoning her as well as my 2 year old! I just feel terrible. having troubles sleeping and life is just so dang hard!!!!!!! Sigh, thanks for letting me get that off my chest!