After a lot of struglles and serious thinkgin (and crying), I have decided to stop my efforts to relactate. Ds just doesn't allow me time to pump and I miss so much time with him because I'm attached to my pump. He cries 8-10 hours a day for no reason and I won't let him cry while I pump.
Thanks for all the advice ladies. I will always regret my choice when he was born but there's nothing I can do to change it. Time to get over it, I guess.