Hi Ladies... I have been on again, off again trying to relactate. I was a bit depressed when I first started. I was diagnosed with severe PPD and put on meds. I am going into 5 days of being on the meds and to be honest, they make me feel like crud. During these past 5 days, I have barely pumped. Between my feeling like crap (normal side effects according to my doctor, whom I called today), DS is teething and cries so much. I feel like I'm getting nowhere and I'm trying so hard not to beat myself up for it. I know my PPD is playing a big part in who I am right now.
I guess I'm wondering about my chances at being successful... I know it takes time and lots of dedication and I am dedicated. I guess pumping so often every day and still getting almost nothing (other than a few drops) got to me...
DS is 4 months old. We haven't nursed since he was 2 days old. He will not take my breast, not even for comfort. I babywear seveal hours a day and we bathe together. I don't cosleep because of DS's reflux (he still sleeps in the swing so he can be upright) but I would love to wean him from his swing and back into our bed. We cuddle all day long but he still won't take my breast. I do have an SNS but until I can get him even want me, it's no use... I've tried, lol.
I guess I have that part of me that is depressed and tired of trying. I know in my heart that if I give up without really giving it my all, I'll regret it deeply.
Can anyone give me some motivation? I'm trying to motivate myself but it's the whole issue of not getting anything while pumping that keeps bringing me down...
Oh, I am taking herbs (more milk plus and additional fenugreek)... Or I was... I stopped them when I started feeling cruddy from my Paxil... I just wanted to rule out the herbs, lol.