Gosh I'm tired of the rollercoaster. When LO was tiny, I remember thinking "This will all be a vague memory". Baby is almost 6 months old now, and I'm still struggling every day.
Adopted baby, managed to get to exclusive b/f, and then found out that LO wasn't gaining hardly at all, started supplimenting when all else failed, and by all else I mean oatmeal, fenugreek, blessed thistle, domperidone, high protein diet, lots of calcium, lots of vitamin B, fennel tea, basil, a ton of water, lots of rest, co sleeping and nursing around the clock for hours on end.
We stayed at one bottle a day for quite a while, but now LO is acting hungry again. I'm up to three 4 oz bottles a day, and one through the night, along with rice cereal twice a day. The boy has an insatiable appetite, and I just can't keep up with it through b/f. He is only 5 and a half months old, I never fed any of my biological children cereal until about 8 months, and then they didn't really care for it.
I guess what this long post is all about is that I feel like I have failed him, and I'm always embarrassed to give him a bottle. Yesterday HD said "another bottle"? and I was almost in tears. He was mearly commenting on his huge appetite, but it feels like a jab to my inability to nurse the child. Milk supply was never an issue for my 5 other chidren, it was always just a given, that I could feed my children. I know b/f isn't just about milk, and I am grateful that I have created such a strong bond with my little man. I just need to focus on that I guess.