now I'm not sure. DD is almost one year old. Originally, like many mamas, I intended to breastfeed for one year and then wean. Then, several months into it, I decided to do baby-led weaning, or until age 2. Now that she is almost a year old, I'm finding myself tired of nursing and not enjoying it as much as I used to. It depends on the time of day, for me. Nursing as soon as DD wakes up in the morning is nice, because we're both in good moods and relaxed. I feel warm fuzzies! However, during the daytime, I'm so busy with homeschooling and doing household chores that I get frustrated when I have to stop what I'm doing to nurse. DD will take a bottle of EBM or a sippy of water sometimes, but when she's tired or cranky, she just wants to nurse, and nothing will appease her until I let her have it! At times like these, when I have so much to do and so little time, I just wish she'd take a bottle! At bedtime, she has me under her thumb, so to speak. When she's winding down, she must have me in the bed with her. She'll nurse for a minute or two, sit up and play a minute, then get restless and want to nurse for another couple of minutes, then play, and so on. Sometimes this drags on for an hour or more before she finally nurses to sleep. I simply cannot do this every night! However, during the night, she wakes at least twice to nurse, and I don't mind it, because I'd much rather nurse her in bed than to have to get up and get a bottle!
So, a few days ago, I made the decision to try partially weaning her at a year. I'm trying to actually start right now, but I'm not sure how to go about doing it. My goal was to get to where she nurses only during the night and first thing in the morning (I'd probably keep the bedtime nursing sessions, too, as that has always been the only way that she'll go to sleep). I don't know what to do about naps, though. She nurses to sleep for naps, too.
And then, today, I started having second thoughts. I started feeling failure, because I'd gone against my plan of baby-led weaning, and instead gave in to my own selfishness. But, my son needs me, too, and I frequently have to put his school lessons on hold, or put off his questions, so that I can go nurse DD to sleep. I just don't know what to do. I love the fact that I can always turn to nursing whenever DD is hungry, irritable, tired, cuddly, etc.
I don't really know what my question is here, or if I even have a question. I just need some advice and encouragement, I suppose.