Ok, I'm freaking out now. I gave myself until August to not think about school, and now I have knots in my stomach. I graduate in May finally after six years!!!!(I had to work full time(one-on-one w/autistic child), so I went whenever I could) I've always had my eye on the prize, but now that lo is here I lost my drive when I need it most. I can't turn back now, but I just look at him and cry. I will only say this here, but I could care less if I ever work again!!!! Ahh, I said it!
Anyway, my real problem is that I'm afraid that my schedule will effect my breastfeeding relationship with lo. My schedule is crazy. I will be going three days a week during the day, and one day I have a night class as well. On top of that, I have to put in 45 hours in a classroom as a precursor to student teaching. AND ON TOP OF THAT, I have to fill in as a substitute teacher whenever I can. I don't know how I'm going to do this. I have so little help as it is, and the last thing I'm going to feel like doing after being away from lo is study/homework....AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I miss him already. I have never been able to pump anything over an ounce at a time, so storing milk is a joke. What can I do???? I don't really know what I'm looking for, maybe just some words of encouragement. Thanks ladies