Without going into all the details because it would take too long, dd's parents are going through a divorce (mil had an affair). I am sorry that dh's is having to deal with that, but he is way too involved. He is in the middle of a he said, she said. He is back and forth on the phone with his parents every day and this has been going on for months. He has left dd and I twice to help his mom and talk to them. The last time he left was to fly to another state and help his mom drive back home. Her husband was going to go in the first place but then she asked him to come later because she didn't want an altercation b/w current husband and lover. Well, FIL asked dh to go. The lover has a criminal background and was doing psycho stuff so she wanted out of there. And my DH gets sent in. Long story short, since this has all happened, I haven't been able to bf dd very well. I feel robbed of my relationship with her and I have resentment towards the inlaws and my husband. I have anxiety when I try to bf dd now and it has created her to refuse the breast and when she does latch on my let-down is slow (10 minutes last night) because I am so anxious that she will pull off before I have a let down. She really only nurses during the night and last night she refused for the first time so I feel like I am losing that as well. I feel disheartened. I was committed to going a year and now I think my breastfeeding is ruined. I am not one for tears, but I could cry. I don't know how to let go of these feelings and get my relationship back with my daughter. This sucks! Thanks for letting me vent.