Well, the big day is still approaching for me- Tuesday of next week and I am already worked up and not sleeping over it. I have been looking for alternate employment since I was on maternity leave in March and April. Since I have yet to find anything, I have to go back to a school that I am not certain I want to be at. I know that it will be a struggle with only two 40 min preps per week, alternating lunch duty, and a 3/4 split class with 24 kids. When I write that all out, all I can think is when am I going to have time to pump?? My baby has been sleeping through the night (9pm-5am, nurse and then 5:30am-9:30am) and then nursing close to every two and a half hours during the day. I already have an oversupply, so I am not sure how this will work- I can't go 6 hours without pumping, and we have an extended school day. I guess I will have to work it out with admin soon. I have hoped to find something different, so I have remained somewhat in denial until today and yesterday. Tomorrow and Thurs are my last alone days with her. I just worry so much - she is a pretty high needs baby, cries and fusses very often, and needs a very flexible schedule. My childcare options are very limited, and it seems everyone around believes babies need to be on a schedule. If I could only get the job at the hospital that I applied for. What a blessing that would be- 3 days a week, 7pm-7am, no childcare.