Hello! I’ve posted a few times on here with various bf problems – and everyone has been fantastically supportive, so thank-you. However, after 11.5 weeks of constant screaming every time I tried to feed my daughter, and having tried absolutely everything, I’m afraid I quit!
Basically, I got to the stage on Friday night where I actually felt suicidal (‘she’d be better off without me, I’m starving her’) and realised with a bang that bf is not the best thing for either of us if that’s how it makes me feel. I gave her a bottle of expressed milk, having tried to bf for 1.5 hours and having only met with screams, and she wolfed it down. I got a second bottle out of the freezer and she wolfed that down too! She ate 8 oz, and she’s only 10lb and would only ever bf for 5-10 mins, so she really was desperately hungry.
I’ve come to the conclusion that she really really doesn’t like breastfeeding – it may well be that she wants to sit bolt upright when eating, or look around at the world, I don’t know. I just know that since I made my momentous, emotional, incredibly hard decision the screaming has stopped and she’s finally eating properly. I pray that she will start to gain weight now too. I’m sure this won’t be the last time that she doesn’t want to do what I think she should!
I will try to feed her as much expressed milk as poss for as long as poss, until my supply fails me. She’s happy to eat the milk from a bottle, so despite all my dietary changes etc it obviously wasn’t the milk itself that was the problem, thank God.
So, thank-you so very much to everyone on this forum for all your kind, supportive words. I couldn’t have made it as far as I did or make this decision without you.
I’ll now go and hang around the pumping forum for some tips…