My son is 21 months, and has been nursing every 2 hours or less(seriously) since 4 months old. I am exhausted. I think I may have chronic fatigue syndrome. my body always feels sore like I have the flu. I sometimes enjoy the daytime nursing. I can barely deal with the nighttime nursing. We co-sleep away from husband. If I say no to nursing, he gets very angry. I am afraid to say no at night because in the past he has gotten so upset, that he wakes up completely, and it is 2 hours before we get back to sleep. I am stuck in a vicious cycle. I don't know how to correct it. I fantasize about 4 solid hours of sleep. I imagine leaving my family so that i can go sleep in a hotel. I am a huge fan of breastfeeding, but I am completely spent. My husband has had a lot of stress at work, so he can't give me more than a friday and saturday night, and I am not sure we could accomplish anything in that short of time. The baby naps regularly, 2 hours every afternoon, and goes to sleep between 8 and 10, and wakes up between 7 and 8. However, he nurses every 1.5 to 2 hours during that time. I have tried the pantley pull-off, but it doesn't keep him from waking up again and again.
I feel guilty about wanting to quit,and I don't even know how to do it, but i am so, so, tired. Any words of advice out there? I know this too shall pass, and he won't be this little forever, but my 10 year old nursed until 2 1/2, and it wasn't this difficult.